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so much for 'i respect you so i won't'
yeh well i respect you too but i'm still gonna call you an ass.

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**Heads up, avoid if uninterested in me going on and on. and on.




It was a gigantic book. Kinda like the yellow pages, only black with some lines of colour on the cover. It was filled with guitar chords and old school songs.

Sometimes after dinner we'd all squash into that corner with the rattan couch. You'd take that book out along with your guitar and I would stare and smile to whatever you played.

I don't remember a single song that was in the book. Not a single tune that you used to play. But I do remember loving every moment.

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I'm starting to not remember. The old is fading, and there aren't any new ones to replace them and I don't know how to feel about that. But I feel envious when I see a father just walking with his daughter. I feel sad when I see an old couple still in love. I feel mad because you've taken that away from someone. I feel pissed when I think of everything she's gone through because of you. I feel scared that someone I love could walk out too. I feel annoyed at the thought of having to forgive you. I feel stupid when I see a bug and think that you were always the one killing them for me. I hate your calls because our conversations are reduced to 'hows school', 'have you grown?', gaps, and quick goodbyes. I used to repeatedly wish for you to come home. I miss you but I don't want you around anymore, you've got other people to be around now.


It's anger, mixed with wanting and love. I keep hoping for you to regret. But at the same time I keep praying for you to have joy and comfort. Whatthehell.


I know shit like this happens to everyone these days. And I'm just one among the million, but everyone needs a rant about how shitty it is once in a while.

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How mum prayed for me before my exam this morning:

"Dear God I pray that you will take away for spirit of dumbness from Sam."

feelin

fcked.

looped in my head

I can't go any further then this
I want you so badly, it's my biggest wish

I spent my time just thinkin thinkin thinkin bout you
Every single day yes, i'm really missin' missin' you
And all those things we use to use to use to do
Hey girl, wuz up, it use to be just me and you
I spent my time just thinkin thinkin thinkin bout you
Every single day, yes i'm really missin missin you
And all those things we use to use to use to do
Hey girl wuz up, wuz up, wuz up, wuz up

Meet me halfway, right at the boarderline
That's where i'm gonna wait, for you
I'll be lookin out, night n'day
Took my heart to the limit, and this is where i'll stay
I can't go any further then this
I want you so bad it's my only wish

Girl,i travel round the world and even sail the seven seas
Across the universe I go to other galexies
Just tell me where you want, just tell me where you wanna to meet
I navigate myself myself to take me where you be
Cause girl I want, i, i, I want you right now
I travel uptown (town) I travel downtown
I wanna to have you around (round) like every single day
I love you alway..way

Meet me halfway
Black Eyed Peas

random no?

I was washing a cup.

Whilst holding on to its handle while sponging it, it broke off from its handle and fell into the sink.

Where it broke another cup.

thumbs up to sam (:

ffs

screw the bad.
life is good.